Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Adieu to Fifty Pounds!

This morning was the morning. I woke up, stepped on the scale and there it was!

Or, rather, there it wasn't.

I'm am down officially 50 pounds from my very first vlcd on my very first round of hcg!!

I can't tell you how good this feels. And how good it'll feel 3 pounds from now when I'm down 50 pounds from my pre-hcg weight. Or in 4.1 pounds from now and I'm in my 230's with Onderland closer than it's been in years!

There have been tough times, tempting times, and frustrating times on this diet. But it's all worth it. To be able to face the scale each morning and watch it show my victories (and sometimes my defeats) and to own it is a powerful feeling. I no longer shy away from talking about my weight issues. I could never do that before. I felt extremely uncomfortable when the talk fell to diet and exercise, especially during those times I wasn't even making attempts to control the runaway train that was my weight gain.

I recently went to school to become a CNA and in one of the skills we had to learn how to properly use a scale. We went in groups of 4, because the practice room was small. I was the first on the scale. Although I was easily the biggest person in our group, I knew that number on the scale was smaller than it had been just a few months prior. And I knew that whatever weight I was that day was just a waiting point, until my next round. I didn't feel shame or anxiety or full on fear that I would have felt just 5 months ago. How's that for a changed attitude?

Don't get me wrong, I'm still not broadcasting my weight through a bull horn as I have the Hubs drive up and down the street, but I can be honest about it when asked. I can own it. That's the biggest secret to this diet, being able to confront my worst enemy- not the fat, but my own fears and insecurities. Not want to deal with the fat issue only made it worse. Now I'm on the right path to success and long term health.

It feels great!!


Lis said...

Hooray!!! I am so happy for you!

SmallerMEHCG said...

Wow Wow Wow!!! That is so awesome! You are doing so fabulous!
And thank you for sharing! you are an inspiration!

Schatzi said...

CONGRATS! What a great victory!

startinglife25yearslate said...

AMAZING!!! So very proud of you my friend!!!!

helderheid said...

CONGRATS!! Amazing job!!!

Jessica said...

Congrats on being down 50!!! Can you share what you learned about weighing properly? I would love to hear and I bet more would too :)

Kathleen said...

Everyone, thank you so much!

Jessica- we had to practice weighing on the old fashioned scales that you still see at some doctor's offices. The only secret there is trying to figure out how much the person is lying about their weight and using the correct weight increments to ).

Anonymous said...

That is brilliant. Congrats on the changed attitude, self-love, and results on the scale! :D

Connie said...

Congratulations!! You're doing awesome!